Capture your grief – Day 10 – A Space Re-Imagined #captureyourgrief2017 #whathealsyou

I am really excited to be working on making a space to sit and be quiet, think of Hoban and have his things around. Yes I have a lot of pictures and things around the house but a room where it can all be would be awesome. So I am thinking about how I can … More Capture your grief – Day 10 – A Space Re-Imagined #captureyourgrief2017 #whathealsyou

Capture your grief – Day 8 and 9 – Sunday Tribe Cricle and Clear + Let Go #captureyourgrief2017 #whathealsyou

I’m posting day 8 and 9 together because there wasn’t really a prompt and exercise for day 8. Just an online meet up which I didn’t make because it was our Thanksgiving holiday weekend here in Canada and I was tied up with my husband and some friends. So day 8 meant time for our … More Capture your grief – Day 8 and 9 – Sunday Tribe Cricle and Clear + Let Go #captureyourgrief2017 #whathealsyou

Capture your grief – Day 7 – For the First Time #captureyourgrief2017 #whathealsyou

I kind of struggled on what one thing I wanted to do for my day 7 post. So after some soul searching and thinking about firsts that I had on my bucket list and general to do, I came up with this! I have been wanting to design and make one of these scrabble game … More Capture your grief – Day 7 – For the First Time #captureyourgrief2017 #whathealsyou

Capture your grief – Day 6 – Bella Luna #captureyourgrief2017 #whathealsyou

I have always loved the full moon. It makes me feel happy and peaceful. Sometimes I have looked at the moon with tears stinging my eyes and rolling down my cheeks. Sometimes I am rolling in the grass laughing and innocent. Regardless how I have seen the moon’s beauty I always find it so wonderfully … More Capture your grief – Day 6 – Bella Luna #captureyourgrief2017 #whathealsyou

Capture your grief – Day 5 – Soul Therapy #captureyourgrief2017 #whathealsyou

In the past 10 years on my journey through trauma old and new I have learned so many soul therapies that I absolutely LOVE! I have always been a very creative person and enjoy a great many things. For that reason there hasn’t only been one or two things that I go to as a … More Capture your grief – Day 5 – Soul Therapy #captureyourgrief2017 #whathealsyou

Capture your grief – Day 4 – Belonging #captureyourgrief2017 #whathealsyou

  Warning- This post may be disturbing for some. Real account of grief and it’s long for blog post too When Hoban died I felt that I died too and was pretty sure I was going to in fact die. I really did and here’s why. The colours faded completely out of the world within … More Capture your grief – Day 4 – Belonging #captureyourgrief2017 #whathealsyou

Capture your grief – Day 3 – Meaningful mantra #captureyourgrief2017 #whathealsyou

  My meaningful mantra is: “There is only love” Hoban, from the moment I found out I was pregnant. Actually no, well before that I can chase that mantra back farther. Others I loved and lost as a young child up into my 20’s, the years of preparation and HARD work have all been driven … More Capture your grief – Day 3 – Meaningful mantra #captureyourgrief2017 #whathealsyou

Capture your grief – Day 2 – Rise + Shine Mourning Ritual #captureyourgrief2017 #whathealsyou

My “mourning” rise and shine ritual is pretty simple. I wake up and do some deep breaths on the side of my bed while I sit there and stretch. Often I gaze at my mirror and think about Hoban and take a few minutes to just miss him and think about him. How things would … More Capture your grief – Day 2 – Rise + Shine Mourning Ritual #captureyourgrief2017 #whathealsyou

Capture your grief – Day 1 – Sunrise Blessing #captureyourgrief2017 #whathealsyou

I have been delayed in posting my “Capture Your Grief” posts this year because something wonderful and shocking happened. I have recently found out I am pregnant. It’s crazy early in and we haven’t told most folks this time because of Hoban dying and the earthquake and fallout it carried with it. But here I … More Capture your grief – Day 1 – Sunrise Blessing #captureyourgrief2017 #whathealsyou

#30DayWritingChallengeForStillbirthMothers Day – 30: 5 Reasons I deserve to be your mother

This is my final post of this writing challenge. Hoban there is no real way to answer this statement. It’s not even one that I agree with the wording of. You see I don’t believe that there are justifications for our reality. I feel that I am in control of my actions in life not … More #30DayWritingChallengeForStillbirthMothers Day – 30: 5 Reasons I deserve to be your mother